Migraines- not for everyone

Well, today's not been so great. I've been trying to suppress a migraine (with minor success) but with each attack my defenses seem to weaken. Its definitely gaining strength. Migraines are so annoying!!!!!!!
For any of you who do get them you'll know what im talking about. Your head feels like its about to explode, you cant concentrate, everything you smell (and i mean everything) is SO strong it makes you feel nauseous, or like your insides are taking tango classes. Migraines are generally just shite.
There are many different cures to them-i've tried most of them. Diet related, nasal spray, injections, the woiks. However, the one that works for me is 2 x 200mg Ibuprofen, 2 x 500mg Paracetamol and plenty of Coffee. Oh and about 3 hours sleep. Argh, I hate migraines but it's such a great feeling knowing that its gone.
I really hope none you get them. Anyways im outtie now, Toodles!!!

The Beetle

A beetle runs up the page of my book. It gets to the
top where the pages part, i let them spread. Why? To allow a challenge?
To assert my power over such a meagre creature? But alas! This 'meagre
creature' has out smarted me, for it has wings and can fly, and so it
does. It flies away and that is that.

So, is this such a meagre
creature? It can do something i cant. I envy this creature now but i
also appreciate it. Although i can get onto an aeroplane and fly off to
destinations unknown. This, however, has been achieved through
mechanical means. What the beetle can do, and this is why i envy it, is
fly using its own body, manipulating the air like a Dolphin in water.
This has taken millions, billions even, of years to develop and
prefect. But is the human means of flight 'unnatural'? We're using
whats around us, combining things to our advantage. This raises yet
more questions.Aahh my life, an on going bombardment of curiosity in my head. This requires coffee.....

The Park

Im sitting. Here, in the Park. If you can call it that. We dont. We call it a 'Public Garden' really, but thats what it is, a garden.

Im smoking a cigarette, legs crossed, sitting. The wall next to me is definite, defined, it has a purpose.

Do i?

Im waiting. For what? Anything really. Just waiting. But i know im waiting, not just sitting. The breeze flows over me occasionally, the birds talk about their plans for today. This place doesnt reject me, im allowed here. Does that mean i might not be allowed here at times?

The sun is out, im
not bathing though. It's bathing me. A person has just come into the
Garden. A tourist. I hope he speaks to me. I would like to be spoken
to, to learn, share stories, commune. The smoke from my cigarette
drowns my hand and washes over me. An owl, strange? It has such a
defined voice, calling forth with its well known hoots. I long for a
voice like that; well known, defined, me.

The seat i first
came to was wet, this one is too but not as much. I like this one
better, it has a wall next to it. It offers something intangible , something that i cant quite put my finger on.

im somewhere else now. Another kind of park. This one has a burn, more people, cars and birds. Crows. Singing their morning songs. This is one voice im glad i dont have.

Nice & Depressive- Mutually Exclusive?

Depressive- a feeling of sadness, emptiness and feeling like nothing is good. It can also be the way someone or something appears.
This is a tricky subject. He/she is depressed lets keep away, we might catch it. Is it a disease? Can we catch it from close proximity? Or is it like a smile, spreading to those we meet? So many questions.
Nice- An action, description of somebody or something. Oh, she looks nice, but what if she's depressed? How can nice and depressive be mutually exclusive when they exist in the same body, perhaps in different forms but still there?
Ok, I'm not sure if I'm making much sense. But then again i don't usually. See, I'm nice to people, polite even. Why wouldn't i be? no need to be nasty. I may dress all in black and have long black hair but does that mean I'm depressed? NO! It means i like the colour black! These are some of the pre-misconceptions that people make. This annoys me, ggrr.
hehe, anyway this still brings us back to the question: Is Nice & Depressive Mutually exclusive?
Can an action of niceness be depressing? I think this is all a bit confusing. It all really depends on someones upbringing, their social group and the current events in their life. So, to end this train wreck of confusion, Nice & Depressive and NOT mutually exclusive.

Sometimes i wish the World came with Subtitles

This is very true. If the World came with subtitles then we would at least know what was going on instead of thinking "Ya wah???".

Now i have just come back from Norway (which is where i got my inspiration) and whilst i was there i was staying with friends. We would sit down to dinner and of course conversation would ensue. So there's me, sitting quietly eating my dinner, trying for the life of me to figure out what the hell anyone was saying and there would be an eruption of laughter. I felt so embarrassed at times like these because you tend to laugh at your friends families jokes (even if their not that funny, or a bit racist as the case sometimes may be) but im sitting there still eating my dinner and thinking "should i join in? Or just keep eating? Oh damn my carrot got away again.....oh yeah wait the joke. Was it a joke? Maybe it was a pun. Oh dear im lost. Right just focuse on the food. Food food food. What's this??? Lets try it*puts fork filled which unknown substances in mouth*. OMG!!! This is fowl!! I cant spit it out, oh no oh no oh no oh no!!!! Ok just swallow it and smile......well, go on then, do it! Come on! Its just some slimey stuff, just SWALLOW!! *swallows* OMG its even worse where there are no taste buds!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! They've stopped laughing". Ok, sorry about that. I tend to go off on random tangents which has nothing to do with what im actually blogging about. So, anyway. Now, this subject doesnt just apply to foreign languages, it can be usefull about the house say with animals for instance.
*A dog barks*
"What is it?? You want out for a pee??"
*Dog barks* "No i want to have a bath. And not with that crappy dog shampoo! I want the real deal, you know, the L'Oreal stuff with the fortifying vitamins and minerals in it. I aint just any dog, i'll have you know that im nearly a pedigree. If it wsnt for my mother playing miss whore'alot in the park a couple years ago."
"I bet your hungry!!"
*The dog looks* "Oh, and dont even get me started on that abismal excuse for food you make me choke down every night. What eer happend to steak dinners, or at least a salal once in a while. i mean i've gained 3 pounds! 3 POUNDS!!! Do you know what that generic crap does to my figure??"
"Lets get you some food then. Want an egg?? I bet you do. Its sooooo good for your coat."
"Do i look like a body builder? I do NOT need an egg and especially not one of those out of date one you brought back (or shouldi say smuggled back) from greece. I know they've been laying in there for at least 3 months"
"There we go, its your favorite 'Lamb and Rabbit' but i put an extra special something on it for you"
"YAY!!! *frowns* WORMING TABLETS!!!!